Thursday, June 01, 2006


At 3:14 AM on June 1, 2006, C M M left this plane to continue her mission of justice and peace somewhere else in the multiverse. Her passing was so bitter sweet. She suffered long and fought hard. In the end, her spirit broke free of a body that had long ago ceased to provide a comfortable and functional home.

She was my true love and I am a much better person for having been in her presence these past twenty or so years. I would like to think that she and I worked each other from the state of rough and ungainly blanks to that of smooth and beautiful gems but I would be disingenuous in doing so. While two people cannot but help change the other over such a long relationship, she had the greater task in that she found her opposite partner far rougher than herself. As in all things, she brought her endless energy, indomitable will, and her keen desire for perfection to bear on the task of molding the imperfect lump of organic matter she found by her side into something more suitable for companionship.

The fact that she failed in her attempt at perfection lies not with her, but with me. Be that as it may, I am closer now and will miss my ongoing lessons.

She left behind an addled husband and two courageous children. K and J were awakened shortly after their mother’s departure and apprised of the situation. They were both calm and measured. They elected to go to school as normal rather than take the day off and have to deal with the shambling mumbler that they sometimes address as Father. As I write this, they are both home – one sleeping and one being a seemingly normal teenager. How do they do it?

I have talked to some of you and left messages for others. It would be impossible to contact everyone who knew C and found a richness there so I will make use of this marvelous new tool of this age and broadcast our celebration of our wife, mother, companion, teacher, guide, friend, and soul-mate.

As per C’s wishes, she will be cremated without ceremony or religious service. There will be a memorial celebration gathering at the T restaurant later this month. More details will follow.

Right now, I am far too wasted on grief, passion, exhaustion, and amazement to continue writing. I will post again soon.

For all of you out there who knew C and wish to share your thoughts or memories, we invite you to leave them here as a comment.

Farewell my love.



Blogger lime said...

i of course only know your beloved wife through your writing here. please know that you have both touched my heart deeply and i grieve with you and your family in the loss of one so courageous and dear. i also rejoice in all the good that she exhibited through her love for you and the children and the steadfast perseverance she displayed. thank you for so openly sharing so much with us in such a difficult time. i pray all your hearts are comforted by good memories and by her lasting positive influence in your lives. may she rest in peace and may all of you be given peace and rest and comfort and strength in the times and ways you most need it.
in sympathy,

11:53 AM, June 03, 2006  
Blogger The Kept Woman said...

I don't know how you do it.

I guess with the amount of time you both had to realize what was coming there is a certain peace but I'm crying buckets for you. I love the celebration of life that you have planned and know that C will be somewhere feeling the love.

7:48 PM, June 05, 2006  
Blogger Leesa said...

My sincere condolences. I haven't said much, because I don't know what to say. But I've kept up.
Hope you're doing well.

8:40 PM, June 11, 2006  
Blogger averagedrinker said...

my sincere condolences...take things slowly but surely. i hope your kids grow up to be tough and god-fearing children.

1:11 AM, June 27, 2006  

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