Friday, June 01, 2007


This is a repost of an entry I made on our Caring Bridge site a year ago.

At 3:14 AM on June 1, 2006, CMM left this plane to continue her mission of justice and peace somewhere else in the multiverse. Her passing was so bitter sweet. She suffered long and fought hard. In the end, her spirit broke free of a body that had long ago ceased to provide a comfortable and functional home.

She was my true love and I am a much better person for having been in her presence these past twenty or so years. I would like to think that she and I worked each other from the state of rough and ungainly blanks to that of smooth and beautiful gems but I would be disingenuous in doing so. While two people cannot but help change the other over such a long relationship, she had the greater task in that she found her opposite partner far rougher than herself. As in all things, she brought her endless energy, indomitable will, and her keen desire for perfection to bear on the task of molding the imperfect lump of organic matter she found by her side into something more suitable for companionship.

The fact that she failed in her attempt at perfection lies not with her, but with me. Be that as it may, I am closer now and will miss my ongoing lessons.

She left behind an addled husband and two courageous children. K and J were awakened shortly after their mother’s departure and apprised of the situation. They were both calm and measured. They elected to go to school as normal rather than take the day off and have to deal with the shambling mumbler that they sometimes address as Father. As I write this, they are both home – one sleeping and one being a seemingly normal teenager. How do they do it?

I have talked to some of you and left messages for others. It would be impossible to contact everyone who knew C and found a richness there so I will make use of this marvelous new tool of this age and broadcast our celebration of our wife, mother, companion, teacher, guide, friend, and soul-mate.

As per C’s wishes, she will be cremated without ceremony or religious service. There will be a memorial celebration gathering at the T restaurant later this month. More details will follow.

Right now, I am far too wasted on grief, passion, exhaustion, and amazement to continue writing. I will post again soon.

For all of you out there who knew C and wish to share your thoughts or memories, we invite you to leave them here as a comment.

Farewell my love.



Blogger Sister Spikey Mace said...

A beautiful tribute, P. Your love for C has shone through these many posts, and we are better for witnessing it.

7:21 PM, June 01, 2007  
Blogger Cheesy said...

Please continue to take great care of yourself my friend... you have done a pretty grand job so far this year. Virtual hugs to
[[[u]]] on this complicated day.

9:18 PM, June 01, 2007  
Blogger lime said...

i remember reading this a year ago. what a journey this last year has been for you and the kids. i give thanks that you are able to say the ground feels somewhat firmer again. may cherished memories, c's indelible imprint on your lives, and the support of true family and friends continue to strenghtne you in whatever lies ahead.

10:07 PM, June 01, 2007  
Blogger John Cowart said...

What a tough, tough thing to go through. Again.

7:04 AM, June 03, 2007  

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